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Annotated by:
- Davis, Cortney
- Date of entry: Feb-26-2001
- Last revised: Nov-19-2009
Summary
This long poem is divided into 48 segments, each a meditation on the narrator's struggle to live with emphysema. Some sections consist of only one line (10: "How alone can you get?"), others are more lengthy; for example, section 37 is a primer on inhalers, "puffers, " how to use them and what happens if you don't.
Every observation in this poem is from a literate poet's point of view, one here focused on emphysema, and so the breath, the body, and the daily rituals of living become primary. The whole world breathes--even the computer, which "sighs" when it is turned off (section 34)--but the poet cannot catch his breath. Reading the poem, even silently, the reader becomes short of breath too, physically aware of the patient's limitations.
In section 24, Carruth laments that he cannot even negotiate the 500 yards up hill to his son's house; in section 29, he writes that even the dog seems "reproachful" when his owner is unable "to play" and throw the blue ball. The accumulated limitations of these taken-for-granted actions makes the author both "pissed and sorry" for the dog, for the man, for the world.
In spite of the physical rebellion of the lungs, the narrator continues to smoke, as many patients with chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD) do, adding another dimension to this poem. Even facing death, the patient's addiction to tobacco is overwhelming; in section 11, the narrator says, "Now I am dying. Now I am afraid. Please give me a cigarette." In section 45, Carruth laments this "nonsense of misery."
Miscellaneous
Primary Source
The Hudson Review LIII/4 (Winter): 584-592 (2001)
Place Published
New York
Editor
Paula Deitz
Page Count
8
Commentary
This powerful inside-look at a patient's experiences with emphysema is both terrible and wonderful. Reading this, a caregiver or student might gain insight into the visceral reality of shortness of breath and the psychic anguish that accompanies it. This poem might be called a treatise on breathing and be studied along with the anatomy and physiology of the lung.
Or it might be framed as a way to illustrate, with words and symbols, the actual physical boxing in of life and breath; in-between each section is a small square with an "x" inside. At the poem's end, we learn that this "wingding" is a symbol for what breath becomes when one has emphysema: "An inner expansive tension with an inflexible confining limit." The wingding that closes the poem has no "x, " like the narrator, having lost its breath.