The Comet's Tail: A Memoir of No Memory
Nawrocki, Amy
Primary Category:
Literature /
Nonfiction
Genre: Memoir
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Annotated by:
- Davis, Cortney
- Date of entry: Aug-02-2018
Summary
When poet and writer Amy Nawrocki was nineteen years old, a
college student returning home after her freshmen year, she suffered a sudden
and mysterious illness. She was
transformed, in an eye-blink, from an active young woman to a bed bound and comatose
patient. "There is nothing to embellish--I
got sick, I fell into a deep sleep, I woke up.
No fairy tale" (page 3).
Months of her life went missing: this brief and lovely memoir is her
attempt to reconstruct those hours and those experiences. She begins with reflections on journal
entries written before her illness began, giving the reader (and herself) a
persona, a personality, a living breathing young woman who already writes, who
lives in her head, and who always felt "totally comfortable" in her
body (page 3).
Then we lose her, as she lost herself. She re-visions the story of her months of
suffering and recovering from encephalitic coma through the various medical
records and family memories she gathers in order to reconstruct the missing
pieces of her life. "The coma girl has detached herself from me. I have to
dream her up or rely on what others saw, eye witnesses who had to detach
themselves in a different way" (page 21).
Coming back into life after a serious illness is a strange
and often prolonged journey. Nawrocki writes,
"Waking up took as long as sleeping" (page 33). And in this waking up time, she begins to see
who she was (or how she looked to others) during those blank months. "The
images still frighten me. My face was a mess; hair cropped short, puffed up
without styling, ragged, like I just woke up. My eyes seemed empty but weirdly
wild" (page 35).
During her recovery, the author begins journaling again.
"In my college notes, I focused on the art of reflection; after the
illness, I wanted mainly to observe" (page 42). And in recovery, she begins to build memories
once again. She lists her recollections during weeks in rehab, and she
remembers "the final trip home, a cake decorated with blue and yellow
icing waiting for me" (page 45).
Miscellaneous
This book will appeal to caregivers and to patients,
especially to those who also have missing sections of their lives, and to any
reader interested in medicine, in the mind, and in the elusive workings of
memory.
Publisher
Little Bound Books
Place Published
Pawcatuck, CT
Edition
2018
Page Count
49
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