Summary

A few years into their marriage, while their children are still young, Sara and Phil discover that he has an aggressive form of cancer.  He undergoes grueling surgery, but the cancer returns.  For Sara the prospect of Phil's death reawakens the trauma of losing her father when she was twelve.  Phil does his best to live a normal life between chemotherapy treatments and further surgeries, and even enters an experimental treatment in hope of seeing his children grow up.  His greatest pleasure in life is sailing, and one of his deepest hopes for his remaining time with his family to enjoy sailing with them in the ocean near their New England home.  But Sara finds it scary, even though she gamely learns to crew, and the kids never take to it.  So Phil sails with friends, and sometimes alone.  After learning that the cancer has continued to spread despite every medical effort, Phil decides to take one last sailing trip, this time alone, on the ocean.  There he has to make a decision:  his intention is simply to sail until his body gives out and die on the boat he loves, sparing Sara, he thinks, having to watch him die a slow and painful death.  But he begins to realize that letting her see him through might, after all, be a better way to go.  As the novel ends, he turns the boat, now quite far from land, toward home.  

Commentary

This novel is a sequel to Kenney's In Another Country (see this database), and offers a reprise of the events in that story that take us through Sara's loss of her father and struggle to live not only with her own but also her mother's erratic mourning and mental illness.  Despite so many layers of sorrow in these stories, they are neither melodramatic nor morbid, but portraits of a very believable young woman and the man she loves finding ways to cope with the enormity of loss while sustaining the ordinary things that make life together meaningful-parenting, caring for an old house, sculpting for her, sailing for him.  Kenney's style is understated, the plot episodic, and the rhythm of the story fugue-like in repeated incidents that arise in Sara's memory as she confronts each new turn of events that take her, with a certain dramatic irony, toward the relinquishment she knows will come.  Phil's deep desire to sail, even when he is barely well enough to manage the boat becomes, of course, a core metaphor for the process of finding direction, discipline, and awareness of the forces that must be both accepted and managed in the course of a successful voyage. 

Publisher

Penguin Books

Place Published

New York

Edition

1988

Page Count

320